Floundering...

So it's been a week and I feel like I am floundering here in Lexico. I'm extremely lonely. Barbri classes are horrible and there is no one here that I'm close friends with. I hate to say it but I miss Craiggie/Smapty (yeah yeah, I know you're going to laugh when you read this Smapt >:/). I drive by his window everyday going to school and realize he's no longer here along with other people I've grown close with during the two years. It also doesn't help that the school is like a tomb except for the one class. The noise from construction and lack of AC really doesn't help either.

I realized just how lonely I was last night when I was scrolling through my IM lists looking for someone to talk to..blah pathetic. I talked to my good friend Stef today and I really miss her. Come to think of it, it's pretty amazing how close we got in one year. Actually, we had a pretty good group our 1L year. In some ways, I wish I never left but, I know it was for the best even though ironically, I don't really want to be a lawyer.

Anyway, Tyler pointed out to me the other day that I was being pretty anti-social because I did not want to go lay out at the pool with his friends. But, I just feel like they are his friends, not mine and I miss MY friends. So the point of my rambling is that 1) I'm lonely, 2) Lexington sucks and 3) without poker to distract me, I'm liable to go insane before the summer is over.